Melancholy

by Jeff Hedeen

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1.
Kick Back 03:58
From time to time I like to change my mind Cause im not so self assured Every now and then I wipe a bugger on my friend Just to keep myself from getting bored If I think Im funny and you think im gross Then maybe I just get off on being morose I got people to see and things to do Or maybe the whole wide world is spinning round just for you I could sit here with alomst nothing to do but just kick back and remember you Ill Try to organize all the thoughts in my head Or Ill take the day off and just stay in bed These lyrics don’t make sense and that’s no mistake Oh, Its 3am and IM wide awake Last years not here cause its all gone by And every time I look back I just want to cry In my mind im still a boy and I don’t know a thing Ive been searching for joy She says im crazy cause she cheated on me I say Why buy the cow when you get the milk for free All that we do and all that we say Isn’t always the same thing it changes everyday If am to fail at reaching my goal Then Im a loser and not a winner now so im told I could sit here with alomst nothing to do but just kick back and remember you Ill Try to organize all the thoughts in my head Or Ill just take the day off and stay in bed These lyrics don’t make sense and that’s no mistake Oh, Its 3am and IM wide awake
2.
Born To Die 03:34
I could sink an 8 ball by myself all night Just crack it back and everything will be alright I lost track of life and it’s just not right I could sleep all day and stay up all night Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why Are we so Adict – ted to love and to pain? Some fancy the sun, but I prefer the rain The very depths of your heart Could drive a man insane (if you knew it all) And so we live our lives all in vain (where all gonna die) Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why Some are born for death and are destined for hell They buy the lies and their souls they sell Others are bound for martyrdom and its Heaven they’ll reap So As I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why Born to live born to die Born to struggle and just get by Born to laugh born to cry Born to question and wonder why
3.
Left Me 02:25
Ive said it all Ive said to much (with back up) Ive lost all my Charm Ive lost my touch (with back up) Im Just grinding gears now (cause I’m) not pushing in the clutch I still wonder why (I wonder why?) I loved you so much She left me long ago I don’t care, No more I Shed a few tears And had to go Love seems rare I don’t know Write me love me hear me hug me Give it all She left me long ago I don’t care, No more Shed a few tears And had to go Love seems rare I don’t know Write me love me hear me hug me Give it all Perhaps maybe im crazy Just a little insane Theres NO need for you to lie Or try to explain Why you left me there Dying in pain I count it all as loss now As a crying shame She left me long ago I don’t care, No more Shed a few tears And had to go Love seems rare I don’t know Write me love me hear me hug me Give it all She left me long ago I don’t care, No more Shed a few tears And had to go Love seems rare I don’t know
4.
I can feel like IM up when IM down I can sit and watch the clock go round and round I can feel like im all ready there I can pack I can leave and not be going no where If We could live and never die Then We would know what its on the other side Ill close my eyes till it all goes by first we live and then we die I could stay up for days on end Start to see things that no human could comprehend There’res a place of torment and fire it never goes out and the flames just get higher and higher If We could live and never die Then We would know what its on the other side Ill close my eyes till it all goes by Cause first we live and then we die Ive seen the sunshine wash the rain away Ive got a grey hair and its never going away I read the good word but its hard to obey I believe in GOD no matter what they say If We could live and never die Then We would know what its on the other side Ill close my eyes till it all goes by Cause first we live and then we die
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Forsake All 04:11
If Love is blind then so am I I can’t take any more pain So I stay High, on life Aint got no job, aint got no trophy wife If I had a dime for everything that went wrong I’d have a million dollars in the bank before long What shall we do with all those used up years? There’s no going back now so you can save the tears Lets raise our cups as we cheer prepare to meet your maker And then serve HIM in fear…. Our time to die is closing in So Get your house in order and then forsake all of your sin Its time to die for Christ and just remember we win So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin I can’t seem make money by making these songs And I won’t sell my soul just to belong This whole world is not what it seems Hidden secrets in the park after dark and muffled screams The screams are real I’m not talking about dreams and it’s not just how I feel This place is not what it seems There’s a day of reckoning and its coming, Heavens armies march on forward And the drummers, keep drumming , Heavens armies march on forward And the drummers, keep drumming What shall we do with all these used up years? There’s no going back now so you can save the tears Lets raise our cups as we cheer prepare to meet your maker And serve HIM in fear…. Our time to die is closing in So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin Its time to die for Christ, just remember we win So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin I never thought I’d know a day like this One of my best friends died on a rope and he’ll be missed the most that I can do is think back and reminisce I don’t want him in pain, so I hope he’s in bliss One fateful day he’ll rise from the dead I told him about the Lord I hope he heard what I said What shall we do with all these used up years? There’s no going back now so you can save the tears Lets raise our cups as we cheer prepare to meet your maker And serve HIM in fear…. Our time to die is closing in So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin Its time to die for Christ, just remember we win So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin So Get your house in order and forsake all of your sin
6.
Lay down with me tonight Lay down everything will be alright Ill kiss you on the forehead as you fall asleep Hold on to my love girl cause true love don’t ever, ever come too cheap Don’t call me crazy And don’t drag me down Don’t call me those nasty names And please don’t stomp my fragile heart into the ground One Valentine’s Day we were out and you answered your phone There was another guy on the line but I let it slide You were, a long long way from home I had misplaced Love for lust And With feelings like that how could there ever be trust? I left you with tears in my eyes and later on they got replaced with disgust Don’t call me crazy And don’t drag me down Don’t call me those nasty names And please don’t stomp my fragile heart into the ground Candy Hearts and flowers arnt rare It just another way to show you I care Once I brought them home and you asked me what I did wrong Well There must be no pleasing you, its obvious now that we just don’t belong Don’t call me crazy And don’t drag me down Don’t call me those nasty names And please don’t stomp my fragile heart into the ground
7.
Melancholy 03:19
I used to love the cocaine It went straight up to my brain An addict is what I became And I have myself to blame Melancholy, feeling sorry for myself I should have loved you more than the drugs themselves TO fill the hole in my life is exactly what I need And GOD only knows if Ill succeed Things have changed and Ill never be the same life is not a game I flushed my life down the drain that’s what IM trying to explain Melancholy, feeling sorry for myself I should have loved you more than the drugs themselves TO fill the hole in my life is what I need GOD only knows if Ill succeed you can only be who are so I picked up my guitar so maybe someday Ill be a star either that or I wont get far Melancholy, feeling sorry for myself I should have loved you more than the drugs themselves TO fill the hole in my life is what I need GOD only knows if Ill succeed
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False Light 04:18
In the darkness you don’t have the light that you could find You think you can see but you’re really blind Its not all in your head or even in your mind Its something spiritual that you can’t find (delay) Or see (delay) So Pray to the one true GOD to set you free I don’t want their blood coming back on me Ask HIM to open your eyes so that you can see False hope False light False Flags it’s not right If you don’t know there’s a war then you don’t put up a fight The people of earth are not that bright, You know they don’t believe what they can’t see with their site Even though the worlds floating in space That should tell you right there that you should seek GODS face That should tell you right there that you should seek GODS face Hey there Carol Ann don’t walk into that light It’s a trap for you, to keep you in the night There’s a false light and how dark it is There’s something wrong cause that light aint HIS Ohhh wooa ohh ohh ohh whooaaahh ohhhh False hope False light False Flags it’s not right If you don’t know there’s a war then you don’t put up a fight The people of earth are not that bright, You know they don’t believe what they can’t see with their site Even though the worlds floating in space That should tell you right there that you should seek GODS face Even though the worlds floating in space That should tell you right there that you should seek GODS face Its like a monster taking over your heart That wants to rip you apart and keep you in the dark It wants you to burn in a lake of fire Where the flames don’t go out And they only get higher And higher They never go out, it’s eternal fire
9.
On the way to 40 and over the hill It’s like nothing’s changed but I’m older still And IM getting older now so what’s the deal? Ill pinch myself to see if this is real, And see if this is really real You live and you learn You die without Christ, and you’ll burn The way I lived my life has got me concerned So IM waiting for the day that the LORD Returns When I wake up from this Dream IM gonna find out, Find out what it means I was going take myself to the grave But the Lord stepped and HE saved I wish I had been well behaved But for about 30 years, I was depraved You live and you learn You die without Christ, and you’ll burn The way I lived my life has got me concerned So IM waiting for the day that the LORD Returns Every songs been played Every songs been sung Every song under the sun And everything will and die everything will be dead His words will judge them, that’s what HE said The End of days has just begun And Soon the whole world will come undone You live and you learn You die without Christ, and you’ll burn The way I lived my life has got me concerned So IM waiting for the day that the LORD Returns
10.
I could fly so high that I never come down I could be your guy That’s how I feel when your around Did you lose my name? Did you forget my face? They said they’ve seen you around all over the place IM addicted to you and I cant hold back, just give me one more hit cause im jonesin from your crack I swear I loved you so I never wanted you to go For you it was all to fast and for me it went to slow IIf I saw you out Id take you home everynight You could cuddle by my side And everything would be alright IM addicted to you and I cant hold back, just give me one more hit cause im jonesin from your crack Ive got this feeling now That Ill never see you again I wonder where you are and how you’ve been I kinda wrote this song Just for myself I wear my heart on my sleeve I put my heart on the shelf IM addicted to you and I cant hold back Just give me one more hit cause im jonesin from your crack
11.
Somewhere out there there’s a lonely girl looking for love in a lonely world Lonely people lonely places lonely hearts and lonely faces The end of heartache is love The end of loneliness is love The end of heartache comes from above The end of loneliness isn’t something you can get rid off on your own Shes Feeling rejected and disconnected there worlds going mad just as she suspected Living in despair with pending gloom and she don’t want to ever, ever leave her room The end of heartache is love The end of loneliness is love The end of heartache comes from above The end of loneliness isn’t something you can get rid off on your own melancholy, feeling sorry for herself she never let people take her heart from off the shelf she put it on The end of heartache is love The end of loneliness is love The end of heartache comes from above The end of loneliness isn’t something you can get rid off on your own
12.
Calm Down 02:57
Heyyyyyyyyyyy therrrrrrrrre calm dowwwwwwwwwwn Lifes to short to be pissed someday somebody s gonna be somebodys gonna be missed lifes to short cause someday we die I wanna go to Heaven where the angles Fly How did we get here And how do we live If you want Heavens Mercy you’ve gotta forgive Heyyyyyyyyyyy therrrrrrrrre calm dowwwwwwwwwwn Lifes to short to be pissed someday somebody s gonna be somebodys gonna be missed We take 2 steps forward and three steps back Ya never know when youl go U could have heart attack Once I leave this world I don’t wanna come back Ill Just forsake it all Theres no need to pack I said…. Heyyyyyyyyyyy therrrrrrrrre calm dowwwwwwwwwwn Lifes to short to be pissed someday somebody s gonna be somebodys gonna be missed They say life is a test and its not a game It only comes once and it already came Most don’t know me now they just know my name I didn’t stay still and im just not the same I said…. Heyyyyyyyyyyy therrrrrrrrre calm dowwwwwwwwwwn Lifes to short to be pissed someday somebody s gonna be somebodys gonna be missed [Bring the song to an End after this last Chorus]
13.
I've had something on my mind, yeah I've been searching for a place that’s real hard to find It has streets of gold and gates of pearl It’s set up on high way above and it’s out of this world Seek the Lord as long as He can be found They say if HIS love was an ocean that weed all drowned Knock and the door the door will be opened to you Call upon HIS name and believe he rose from the dead to I've been trying to walk a path called the way Cause Gods coming back one fateful day Taking vengeance those who don’t know the way, hey I hope we’ll be ok on that fateful day and bring glory to GOD Seek the Lord as long as He can be found They say if HIS love was an ocean that weed all drowned Knock and the door the door will be opened to you Call upon HIS name and believe he rose from the dead to Some reject the truth and then they swallow a lie Not even caring that some day they are all going to die You won’t get off this earth on your own Of that you have no control Many people are perishing cause their life the devil stole Seek the Lord as long as He can be found They say if HIS love was an ocean that weed all drowned Knock and the door the door will be opened to you Call upon HIS name and believe he rose from the dead to
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I just sat down in the pouring rain I thought about money and I thought about fame Then I thought about her, I wondered if shed care Maybe then shed want to see me Even so, then life’s not fair. Even so, then life’s not fair You’ve got one life One shot, Now do you go on cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, Now do you go on cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, Now do you go on cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? The rain was pouring heavy over my guitar Still I wondered what it be like if I were a star Would all of that money just to go right to my head? Would I ever win a grammy? Would I ever wind up dead? You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? I could barely see the sun cause the sky was grey The leaves would hit the ground and the wind would just blow them away The one thing I want after I die is for someone to hear my music and say hey I remember that guy You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got? You’ve got one life One shot, do you go cruzing through or do you give it all that you’ve got?
15.
Hurt Me 03:34
Your hearts a mt I tried to climb I ran out of breath and I fell down one time Ive seen you in a way Ive never seen before Its all about you and you want more and more Baby will hurt me just one more time? I’ve got lot songs from you and I feel fine I never thought it would be this way You gave me all kinds’ things to say You stole Seattle from my eyes And You stole my heart with all your lies You knew what you were doing right from the start You had it all set up for ya when it all fell apart Baby will hurt me just one more time? I’ve got lot songs from you and I feel fine I never thought it would end up this way You gave me all kinds’ things to say I used to hit the bottle instead of you Well I want reparation dollars for everything you put me through I still wonder if you hate me till this day And all because I loved you in everyway Baby will hurt me just one more time? I’ve got lot songs from you and I feel fine I never thought it would end up this way You gave me all kinds’ things to say
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It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down Look at my life Look at my pain There pointing fingers saying hes insane She loves she loves the cocain He loves he loves he loves that marry jane She hates she hates to feel the pain Shes higher than an airplane I look at her then I look at myself She likes to flirt with death it se se ah lf She took my heart right off the shelf For her collection shes got there for herself It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down IT was great but its in the past Had a blast while it lasted it went by so fast I wondered how someone like that could ever last Is she the life of the party or an outcast It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down It’s the pain it’s the pain thats leaving It’s the pain it’s the pain that’s grieving me It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down It’s the pain it’s the pain thats leaving It’s the pain it’s the pain that’s grieving me Look at my life Look at my pain There pointing fingers saying hes insane She loves she loves the cocain He loves he loves he loves that marry jane She hates she hates to feel the pain Shes higher than an airplane I look at her then I look at myself She likes to flirt with death it se se ah lf She took my heart right off the shelf For her collection shes got there for herself It’s the rain it’s the rain that’s that’s coming It’s the rain it’s thats rain that’s falling down It’s the pain it’s the pain thats leaving It’s the pain it’s the pain that’s grieving me
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Remember 03:34
IF I remember you will you remember me? Or will we forget it all eventually? Ill talk to you if you talk to me And Ill walk with you if you’re willing to walk with me Time to wake up and pop another pill Chop another line and chase one more thrill Cause its all downhill from here Unless you catch me when I fall Its like I learned how to walk and then learned how to crawl I can see it all now now that your gone You don’t know what you’ve got till what you got is all gone You can run all you want but you’ll still be there Complain all you want and say that lifes not fair that lifes not fair Time to wake up and pop another pill Chop another line and chase one more thrill Cause its all downhill from here Unless you catch me when I fall Its like I learned how to walk and then how to crawl THeres a reason for this and theres a reason for that Theres a reason your why spun and wound up just like that Ive been on my knees begging baby please What was I thinking theres a millions millions of these Time to wake up and pop another pill Chop another line and chase one more thrill Cause its all downhill from here Unless you catch me when I fall Its like I learned how to walk and then how to crawl
18.
A Fool 03:34
You work you endeavor and you try You slave away your entire life and then you die Some don’t know the whole truth so then they wonder why Well, the saints all know it heartily and they cry Only A fool says in his heart that there is no GOD They insult their Creator and then they applaud They buy all the lies and junk that they were fed Not realizing GOD will judge quick and the dead Something doesn’t come from nothing so evolutions a lie In their hearts they hate the HOLY GOD which they deny They try to explain away creation that they see with their eyes Though when they die they’re going get a horrible surprise Only A fool says in their heart that there is no GOD They insult their Creator and then they applaud They buy all the lies and junk that they were fed Not realizing that GOD will judge the quick and the dead The saints will come riding in with Christ when He returns He’ll slay the Anti Christ with his breath and well watch him burn Well rule and reign with Christ for one thousand years And GOD will wipe away all our tears Only A fool says in their heart that there is no GOD They insult their Creator and then they applaud They buy all the lies and junk that they were fed Not realizing that GOD will judge the quick and the dead
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Move yourself groove yourself Put on your boots stand up and prove yourself Use yourself Lose yourself Let it all go get down and Amuse yourself Let it all out and take it all in We don’t ever lose we always win Let it all out and take it all in We don’t ever lose we always win See the bright night through the city lights Hanging round on me and got me feeling alright You and me, we were so tight Being with you all through the night See the bright night through the city lights Hanging round on me and got me feeling alright You and me, we were so tight Being with you all through the night [Little break] So Move yourself [[And]] groove yourself Put on your boots stand up and prove yourself Use yourself Lose yourself Let it all go get down and Amuse yourself Let it all out and take it all in We don’t ever lose we always win Let it all out and take it all in We don’t ever lose we always win See the bright night through the city lights Hanging round on me and got me feeling alright You and me, we were so tight Being with you all through the night See the bright night through the city lights Hanging round on me and got me feeling alright You and me, we were so tight Being with you all through the night You and me, we were so tight Being with you all through the night [let the music play out]
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Most Of All 03:54
The clock on the wall is stuck at 4am And IM just laying here counting sheep again I am feeling a bit under the weather my friend I’ve got a lot of problems and I don’t know where to began What I love about this life most of all Is that GOD became a man to redeem us from the fall Risen from the dead and escaped from the grave Who washed us in his own blood for all the sins that he forgave I throw out my bills cause I just like to pretend They only remind of all the money that I spend I hear the apocalypse is near and that where at the end I hope I got enough time here so that I can make amends What I love about this life most of all Is that GOD became a man to redeem us from the fall Risen from the dead and escaped from the grave Who washed us in his own blood for all the sins that he forgave A year from now I don’t even know if I’ll make the rent I’d get outa bed but from the weekend I am spent I just need a little space so that I can vent I just hope there’s enough time left here so I can repent What I love about this life most of all Is that GOD became a man to redeem us from the fall Risen from the dead and escaped from the grave Who washed us in his own blood for all the sins that he forgave Abba please shake the Heavens and the earth Throw out the devils from above and caste them to the earth You test the reigns and hearts of the righteous And It’s your people that you make into your likeness

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released June 15, 2013

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Jeff Hedeen Orangevale, California

Jeff Hedeen was born in Springfield, MA and has lived in Seattle, WA, Dover, NH, Henderson, NV enfield, CT, and now resides in Sacramento, CA.

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